“Live by faith and not by fear”
It has been said, “There are many ways of moving forward, but only one way of standing still.”
This past week, Richard and I had a good visit with my oncologist. We reviewed my progress and realized it is time for a new treatment plan. My recent PET scan showed the disease is in about the same place. We are happy we are not seeing a lot of growth and the cancer is still contained in my lungs. We also discussed the concern that my cough has become worse over the past few months and most likely indicates disease progression. Together, we decided it is time to change treatment to see if we can get stronger results and a reduction of the disease. A course correction!
On Friday, April 7, I will begin a new chemotherapy treatment. The two drugs are Taxotere and Cyramza. The side effects are very similar to what I have seen in the past. For the first time during treatment, I will also lose my hair. I am busy shopping for cute scarves, hats, and most likely a wig. Just think about how much time I will save in the morning! After three treatments, we will do another scan to see how the new chemotherapy drugs are impacting the cancer. If we see positive results, there will be three more rounds.
Richard and I have learned the importance of living by faith and not fear. The value of course corrections. Several years ago, we had an opportunity to move our family to a different state. Because we were willing to change paths, our lives were richly blessed with relationships that continue to this day. Yesterday, I received the kindest note from a dear friend we met during this time period. I taught her daughter in a church class filled with three-year-olds. My friend and her daughter (who is now a young adolescent) were recently in a meeting and heard a song that we used to sing together. Her daughter turned to her and recalled tender memories of learning the song from me with her other young friends. As my friend shared this experience in her note to me, my heart was touched. Because Richard and I were willing to move forward, we continue to realize blessings and relationships that come with course corrections. I will rely on this learning in the days to come.
And so, there is a new path to travel. Another opportunity to live by faith. The realization that now is not the time to become stagnant. The understanding that blessings will come as I lift my eyes to heaven. The strength that comes from relying on past experiences to help me move forward. I’m grateful for a new plan of attack. I’m ready to keep fighting!